Today is Groundhog Day. If for some reason you are reading this on a day you do not think is Groundhog Day, it really is… but that is totally different discussion for another time. Two days ago I celebrated five weeks post operation. I get to see the good doctor next Wednesday for the six week post op and prognosis. Unlike the same meeting from the last surgery, I’m not sure what to expect this time. I just hope when Dr. Ludwig looks into my eyes she doesn’t see six more weeks of Winter.
With that being said… I feel like I have been living in a Groundhog Day the last month or so. I’ve woken up every morning with a headache. (And my VEO Sleep Manager wakes me up with same sounds from nature) It doesn’t matter what time I go to bed or wake up, my head hurts. I’ve come to accept that this is part of the process. I had similar issues two years ago when I had surgery. Luckily for me, my Groundhog Day usually ends around 8:30 to 9:00 a.m. and I don’t have any encounters with Ned Ryerson.
As for my vision… It’s improving. The world still seems strange and unfamiliar. In reality, its probably more a disconnect in my brain or a cognition issue. For those of you who read this and don’t know me or not around me, I have a phenomenal memory. Most, if not all of that is tied to how I perceive the world through my eyes. When things are working “normally” for me, simply seeing a picture of a place brings back a treasure trove of memories. When things aren’t working right, there is just a blank space there. It’s frustrating because my mind knows there is supposed to be something there. Right now, there are more blank spaces then filled ones. It is better then it was last week, but it feels like it still has a long way to go. My mantra continues to be “patient time.”
On the flip side of this, my mind feels like it is working better than it has in years. It feels like it is getting sharp again. It is as if I’m waking up. One of my favorite quotes has always been “Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart. (He) Who looks outside, dreams. (He) Who looks inside, awakens.” Maybe, in reality, I’m just waking up from the Groundhog Day that I’ve been living in for much longer than the last month.
Final Thoughts on a First Impression 