I feel guilty for not writing over the last two months as my mind has been nothing but a flurry of ideas and thoughts. Some of them are still fresh and potent and others are all but forgotten. These things float in my head screaming to get out and be heard, but often go silent when I finally make time trying to record and reflect on them. So in turn, I have been silent.
The last five months have seen its ups and downs since my eye surgery. To be honest, it feels like it has been an eternity. Since the first month, I feel like my vision changes a bit every day. There is no easy way to explain it except that I feel like it keeps “evolving.” Whenever I start getting use to my eyes, they seem to change a bit. At times, I’ve started to question whether I was losing my sanity or if something was really wrong. Waking up every morning and things being slightly “different” every time has really messed with my head. I feel like I’m noticing new stuff almost on a daily basis. At first it was fun, lately it has just been causing headaches. I guess developing peripheral vision will do that to you.
After talking to my optometrist, it turns out that my eyes keep getting stronger. They are still healing and will continue to do so for a while. It is his opinion that the things that I’m experiencing are just my eyes trying to do what they are programmed to do, but have never done…. That is work together. Right now they are fighting to overcome thirty years of “memory” or the way it has always been. It is going to take some time… I guess I just need to stick to my mantra of “patient time”
Final Thoughts on a First Impression 